“Let the words of my mouth,
and the meditation of my heart,
be acceptable in thy sight,
O Lord, my strength, and my redeemer.”
The first thought to greet me when I opened my eyes on Sunday, January 1st, 2017 was, “Why do your words fail to reflect the trust you say you have in Me?”
I was so not in the mood.
“Me” is the Holy Spirit, and he was definitely in a teaching mood. I, on the other hand, desired only to roll over, cuddle my pillows and fall back asleep. Cuddling with a man was preferable, but that is a story for another day. Anyways, that morning, I wasn't interested in engaging with God. Can a girl get a break?
But it was January 1st, and as much as God is somewhat unpredictable, he isn't in my life when it comes to the first day of the year. For the past five  years, he has had something, solicited or not, appreciated or not, to say.
That morning was not an exception, and I instinctively knew what he was speaking about. At the end of 2016, I had come to the humbling conclusion that I had scarcity mentality and I wrote about it here. Hence I prayed, and in working through what it’d take to transform my mind from scarcity to abundance, I came to the realization that it starts with what I set my mind and heart on.
I needed to shift where I centered my mind and what I filled it with.
But “excuse me, Lord,” I had pushed back because in my humble opinion I was doing just that. For a few years now, I had made spending time in stillness, in the scripture and in prayer integral parts of my morning routine and spiritual practice. The fruits from doing that were numerous. “So pardon me, dear Jesus, if I’m quite perplexed that the answer to transforming my mind, though eye-opening, also left me confused.” So all December long, I wondered what I was doing wrong, and I knew instinctively that his statement that first day of 2017 was in response to my wonderings and the prayers that accompanied them.
And he was right. Setting my mind and heart on Christ and the word is the first steps to transformation, but I had to move to step two—speaking his word out loud over my world and over myself.
God’s word is a two-edged sword; it is active, powerful and living. Swords are designed for war, but owning a sword and the skill to use it are not enough when war comes to town, you’ve got to pull it out and use it. A transformed mind can be useless. Knowing the word is not enough. Yes, my mind was transforming because I was sitting in the word of God, but I wasn’t clamping down onto the word that was transforming my mind. I wasn’t meditating on the word day and night, and honestly, I wasn’t consistently speaking them over me and over the situations I was encountering. Choosing ABUNDANCE as my 2017 word wasn’t enough, I needed to speak abundance over my life. I had to speak out of the abundance of my heart and create the life I desired with my tongue.
In 2017, I used my mouth to speak the life I desired into existence. My words not only shifted stuff around in the physical, they also shook things in the spiritual and ultimately within me. The word of God breathes, and so does my word. I experienced these truths in 2017. You say as you think, and eventually, you move and act and make decisions as you think and speak. That is third prong –the doing and the moving. The lesson from that was also deepened this year but is best highlighted by an incident from sophomore year in college, which I’ll be sharing in another post.