It was one of my weakest moments and there are many of them. I call this one a lesson in COMPARISON.
As usual, I was venting to God in prayer about my life’s unanswered prayers. I shamelessly put one of my friends by name before God and juxtaposed our lives. And just as clear as day, I heard in my heart: "If you look at her instead of me, you will crash and burn."
Then the word "bronze snake" and then silence.
I understood the first statement! Of course, setting my eyes and mind on anything other than Christ is a recipe for disaster, but “bronze snake” I didn’t and couldn’t comprehend. I went to Google, and a quick search for “bronze snake” led me to Numbers 21:4-8 where the Israelites were at it again! They had gotten freaking tired of roaming the desert. Their patience had simply ran out so they complained and murmured, and God responded by sending venomous snakes to them. The only path to safety was to look at a bronze snake that God instructed Moses to make. All kind of cringeworthy details, but go read it plus some commentateries.
Point taken! Case closed, but I'm still side-eying God.
Gratitude can be so hard...I'm not going to sugar coat that mess...many days, I am so deep in my ingratitude that I have no desire to be thankful and other days, I am so deep in my sadness, I can't even see what to be thankful for! It is a daily journey to look at me and then at Christ.
I’m also watching my heels...I HATE snakes!